I don't know anything, but that's okay

To go, or not to go.

To do, or not to do.

Where, and where not.

How, and how to.

When, and what.

Questions are welling up in my brain. I'm not sure what to do. I've had to make a lot of decisions. And anyone who knows me knows how good I am at *that*! I'm always afraid of a wrong and regretted decision.

Aaaagggg! It's so.... hard to know what to do.
I want to work with orphans (in India, specifically). Help them. Love them. Tell them about Jesus.
But I can't just waltz up to some orphanage, like, "Yo, I'm here to help."

It don't work like that, y'all.

So what do I do....

And what about college?

Should I go?

Do I get a degree?

What do I get a degree in?

I am good at art, so I guess it would make sense to get an art degree and do something with that.
But what do I do with an art degree in India? Teach it? I guess. But what does that have to do with helping the poor, working with orphans, and telling people about Jesus? DOES it have anything to do with that?

1:  I could set up an art studio, teach art in it, and have a shelter built into it where homeless and poor can come in for a night to stay, or food to eat.


2:  I could teach art as a job, and also on my own reach out to the people.

Or I could forget art and just go be a straight up missionary in India.

What do I do????

excuse me while i sob in a corner while I contemplate what I shall do with the rest of my life.



Okay, crying done. I'm okay. I can do this.

I got this, bro.

Ok, I don't got it, but I got it.

:D

xx